Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying ‘I will try again tomorrow’.

Mary Anne Radmacher

Being so connected to technology means I am disconnected from the natural world, from nature, from my spirit. All of my energy and focus is going out and what I need is to crawl inside myself to reflect, to step back. I need my roots back, they are shriveled. I crave something, loneliness, a personal retreat? HempWorx momentum is fading as no forward motion as apparent. I want to quit but perhaps if I keep going the motion will reveal itself. Perhaps not. I gave myself a year! For the blog, for this, no one is reading. no one is commenting. They were happy to during the divorce but now no one is inspired! Why am I doing this? Yeah, I know, and that’s enough to keep me going but my intentions, my

I wrote this during five minutes of free-write as I try to struggle out of my rut. I have lost the hopefulness that sustained me during the begining of this new journey to financial freedom. Writing usually helps me find the answer, which is always somewhere inside of me. Because this time has to be different, this time I must persist!

Persistence is not my forté. Not yet, I should say. Like the bullish astrological sign that I am, I tend to want things with such a fierce passion that energy bursts out of me and I become like a bull in a china shop, forcing my desires into existence! It’s pretty effective, really. But when something takes finesse, or when I’ve exhausted myself without managing to get what I want, I often tire out and move on. Not that I’ve lost interest, just that things have gotten too hard for too long and I give up. “This aint working,” I tell myself, ” this isn’t meant to be!”

I MUST persist in spite of myself!

One thing I am learning from my weight loss adventure is persistence. I must find a way/reason to persist! I recently reached a plateau and successfully broke through with a small amount of research and a change in my habits. Now I am seeing progress again. Why not apply that technique in all area’s of stagnancy? With this in mind, I have begun listening to Think and Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill.

Perhaps I am afraid of success or perhaps I need to learn new habits in order to achieve lasting success. The only way to know is to persist. I am not naturally a long-distance runner, but maybe I can learn to be one!

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