In the Car, Rage Screaming with Rock Music On!

Many of my spiritual friends talk about releasing like other people talk about breakfast! It’s so commonplace for them I don’t think they understand how mysterious and mystical it all sounds! Trying to get them to explain the experience is like pulling teeth! Their answers seem wishy-washy and I am often left with more confusion rather than clarity!

When they talk about releasing something it’s a confusing jumble of information to do with anything from past lives to current day problems. Some of them experience them after doing certain chakra meditations, some of them have nice gentle soulful experiences and some of them are violently and physically sick for days!

But then all is merry and jolly and paths are opened for them and the birds are singing and the colors are brighter and blah di blah bi blah! I don’t know if any of that will happen for me. I don’t even know if what I am experiencing is releasing! I just feel enraged! More mad than I have felt in a long time… if ever! Is this some kind of fucked up grief?